Discontent

That’s the pervading theme of my life lately. I can’t really put my finger on the reason why, if there even is a reason. It’s more likely a multitude of reasons all converging at once. All I know is that THIS is not what I had in mind as far as where I should be right now and I’m not happy. I’m pretty good at faking being happy though, which is important. Right? Because Lord knows you don’t want to LOOK unhappy and have well-meaning friends, family members, or daycare teachers asking if you are ok and dissolve into a puddle of tears or scream at them DO I FREAKING LOOK OK? So yeah, that’s where I’m at right now.

Who knows? Maybe this is all just a mid-life crisis because SHIT, I’m turning 40 this year. Maybe this is because I’m married to someone who is never home and on those rare occasions he is home, his mind is somewhere else (there is so much more to it than that, but this is absolutely not the right forum to get into my marital issues). Maybe I’m just tired of doing it all myself - working full time and taking care of the house and the kids - and not getting to have a life of my own. Maybe it’s because I’m disgusted with myself due to my inability to get serious about losing weight. Maybe….hell, I could MAYBE this all day long.

All I know is that this feeling of discontent is starting to affect all aspects of my life now and I’m not entirely sure what to do about it. For me personally, meds are not really an option. I know they are helpful for a lot of people, but I just can’t do them again. Ever. I suppose I could look into therapy but then I just feel silly calling up and making an appointment because I feel discontent. I have started working out and that is making me feel a little bit better, but I’m not really sure what else I need to do in conjunction with that. There are a couple of mini-vacations coming up soon, and they may make a difference, but at this point I’m not very hopeful. It does feel a little cleansing just to get this out of my head and onto my screen, but I’m not going to make a habit of it. So anyway, there you have it. It’s not a very positive update, but it’s honest.

Project

Last night I went to a class at a local store here called The Paper Crown. I saw the project example in the store and immediately fell in love, but I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to pull it off. After taking the class, I can’t believe how easy it was. Seriously.

The background is a torn up Simplicity pattern, the skirt is a paper that features French post cards, the top of the dress is a paper with flocked polka dots, and the scallop at the bottom and ribbon across the midriff are a black and white striped paper.

The polka dots on the skirt are pieces of tissue paper. Of course, I added a picture of my girl to personalize it a little bit. It's going to hang in her room, after all.

And then we embellished with buttons, wired a hangar through the canvas, and painted around edges.

Quick and easy. It’s basically just decoupage, and now that I’ve made one, I want to do more. I'm thinking something in camo for my son's room...